In the darkness of my life, two people were my strengths.The way they were an integral part of each and every post of mine, in the initial days of this blog is proof enough, just what did they mean to me (still do), and what an integral part of my real life were they too.Weird that I had not even met both of them till then.Still have not met one of them.
I laugh at my amateurish self now, thinking how much I was looking forward to the day, when I would leave my house.Most of all, I laugh at how I had planned on doing so much with them, completely forgetting that they have a life of their own too.A life that surely does not require a pathetic sobby little creature like me in it.A creature that has nothing better to do than call them up and cry over the joke that her life had become.Talk about height of being pathetic.
Never thought in my scariest dreams, a day would come, when we would grow so much apart, that at times I would look at my cell, the screen showing their names in my address book, my finger hovering over the dial button, wanting to hear their voice once, still not able to do so.
So what if they were my lanterns in this darkness, and I am totally lost in the darkness now. Maybe it was my own fault that I used them so much that they could not accompany me anymore. Maybe they did what they had to do, leave me to learn and find my path in this darkness alone, for I had started depending on their light a lot :)
It is an entirely irrelevant point in all this, that they were one of the very few, who made this bearable for me :)
3 comments:
Your post made me aware of a nice friend I used to have( I hope we're still friends). Anyways the cathartic display of emotions makes it impossible for me to say anything lest I trespass on your private space. Still a wondrous and brutally honest read.
@ sid
m sure ever1 cn relate 2 dis post in sme way or d othr though its vry mch on my personal life ryte nw
no u wont trespass on my private space...any kind of comnt frm u is welcme :)...since i ryte it here...i feel lke sharin it wid u all so all comnts r welcme evn if dey r personl :)
Jst stepped into ur blog.
Me too,Infact I think most of the people write to let their pain come out..
A wonderful blog that can make people think..
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