Its okay

Its okay you don’t give me reasons for what you do or what you tell me to do. Even God dosent give me reasons. He never told me why I had to see some of the worst faces of life. He didn’t tell me why He didn’t give me something he gives everybody. Hedosent tell me why I miss no opportunity to get a right thing wrong. He dosent tell me why happiness eludes me so much. He dosent tell me why He tests my patience so much. And He doent tell either when is this test going to end. So its okey if you don’t tell me either. After all why should I expect something from you I don’t even get from Him.

Zyada se zyzda kya hoga…………I' ll lose another friend. But that’s okay. If by losing a friend I can rise in your esteem……..mujhe ye bhi manzoor hai. Main bhi dekhana chahti hoon akhir is dard ki hadd kya hai.

Abstract post

"Why is it so dark in here?"
"So that you can see better."
"What do I have to see?"
"Whatever you want."
"Couldn't I just have closed my eyes?"
"Your eyes are closed. Open them."
"In the darkness?"
"Yes."
"Ok."
"So what do you see?"
"Myself."
"Why are you hidden in the dark?"
"Because in the darkness I see myself better."
"Why don't you stop yourself from getting lost then?"
"Because I don't care."
"Who does?"
"Who does!"

Awesome trip

I am back from Delhi and awesome is the word for the trip.Along with exhausting,tiring,exciting etc. etc. etc. Since the day I reached Delhi (i.e. early morning of 4th april o8) it had been one hell of a roller coster ride.Getting out of the house at dot 10 a.m and entering the house again somewhere between 9 to 10 and stopping in the middle of all this just for a quick meal or something.

Now a quick meal does not mean that the meal wasnt lavish or something.Contrary to it I have not eaten so much at one time in the last few years which by the way made things even more difficult for I was hardly in a state to stand much less walk the roads of Carolbagh (hope the spelling is right) or Chandni Chowk with armloads of shopping bags!!!

Delhi was dirty, the streets were very dirty, the only thing I found clean was the Metro, which was very cool. But anyways I am used to dirty places living all my life in a place like where I am living :P.Although I DID expect something better in the country's capital.Not exactly complaining just an observation :P

Now it must be going through the mind of everyone whose reading this post as to what exactly was I doint in Delhi that was so hectic.Hmmm..... good question.I was shopping in grand style for bhai's engagement and wedding ..and when I say grand dont under rate it :D.

The best thing I liked about this trip of mine is that I did shopping in the real sense of the word.No mall wala shopping for me....and you know what the icing on the cake was....heavy downpour while I was shopping in those keechdi peechdi busy galiz of Chandi Chowk.Man was that fun lolzzzzz!!! I'll never forget that day.Trying to save Bhabhi's saris that we bought and getting soaked ourselves in the process.

Anyway, it was a good trip. I am hoping to get admission in Delhi after all the sightseeing(infact I have been hoping for this since a long long time even before this trip of mine) *wink*, but God has other plans for me. Let’s see what happens…………………

Peckish

I'm feeling irritable and cranky, whiny and sulky, indifferent and angry and there's no one close I can talk to, or even want to. I'm basically tired and the confusion in my head just makes it worse. So what do I do? Sleep, I guess. And whine to the world ..And hug the pillow.

Damn, it doesn't hug back.

Fair too, I guess, for eventually in this journey of life we are all alone, absoluetely alone, and that's how we ought to be.

Note to myself: Shut uppppppp.

Note to world: Make fun of me if you want to.I frankly dont care.

Anger in me

This ill temper I have is making me mad

I blow up and I don’t know why I become sad

I wish I could handle my anger at night

I wish for just a moment I could love them right
I wish my attitude would just go away

I wish my anger would stay at bay

The mind set I have for life has to change

The feelings I have need not exchange
I feel the hurt deep down inside

And I wish you could see alright

The rage that is emerging

Comes out when it is least hunted
I realize it’s nothing but annoyance

That’s fetching a threat to my existence

I may end up destroying who I am

Or I may happen to become who I shouldn’t be

???

The distance between us seems to be increasing every moment.
Everything is slipping away slowly and this time around I don't even know what to do.
When did we get to this? And, how did we?

Makesense

Expertspeak :
“Parents never realize that their kids have grown up“

Ispeak :
"buh"

Youspeak :
"leave a comment"