Dearest santa,
You are known to have a big heart. So here goes Santa... if you can grant me one wish, just one, this one would be it.
My friend, she is a good woman. I feel her warm good energy running through my veins like chocolates.Santa, she means no harm and tries her best to make everyone happy but is very unhappy herself. I feel her tears in every smile. She tries to keep calm and collected and not disturb me but she doesn't realise that she can't hide from me. I am Her.
Santa, in these four to five months I have never seen so much pain. She cries all the time, by the window, by the chair, by the mirror, by the tree, everywhere... alone. And people around her think she is so strong. It's true. I've heard them talk about my friend... they say with pride... they say, "She is a rebel and one of the true woman." They look up to her in many ways and I am so proud of her. Yes I am.
So Santa, here is my wish.
Please take all the people she doesn;t want in her life in such a way that she is not responsible. Please bring all the people she craves to have in her life back in a way that they do not leave again. In a way that she does not have to push them away herself, for her sanity as well as there's.The truth is that I am not OK and I know i keep on giving her false hope to see the spark in her eyes.
She is patient, as patient as she can be, but I cannot bear to see her sitting around like a vegetable hoping everything will be OK. Please Santa. I think she is fantastic and I cannot put her through this.
Santa, give my Dida a million smiles instead.. !!
She is fed up of “whatever happens happens for good” happenings. I want something good to actually happen with her. I don’t want her to learn anymore from such happenings.
People who simply can’t stay along, almost invade into her life like twister.., stay for a while, causing things like curiosity, hope, sometimes dreams too, to whirl around her life in a perfect zoom and then suddenly they leave, only to make the place they stayed a junkyard.
Finally she hears “whatever happens happens for good!!! This is how you learn in life”. she has learned enough from all of them who did that. Can you believe, now she almost know how to quit from all kinds of problems that exist in the world, starting from whom she chose to whom her parents chose?
She is totally lost, and so is everyone around [including me]. You said god plays fair always; please ask him to consider this request of mine. I prefer not to play any game starting from now, until he assures me She will not be in the receiving end.
I can’t even make her sleep on my lap coz she will be worried that am lost. We both pretend that we are fine. If you’re free tonight please come in my dreams. I need your lap. For a minute at least, to find “the hopelessly lost myself and her”.
Love,
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