Now that the first month of the new year goes away, I have been refelecting on the past year and decade. I realize for me, this decade is perhaps the foundation, on which I will build the rest of my life. May be it is the same for most of us, our twenties are when we finish studying, start working, get married, have babies…when we really start getting set in our ways, firm up our thoughts and opinions from mere ideas and possibilities.
I don’t think I have changed much as a person in terms of what I believed while younger…about life, love, priorities.
I still believe that life is meant to be lived one day at a time. Not to take anything away from people who make careful plans, but I believe plans or no plans, there is a certain way life will unfold, with or without your help, and things that are meant to be will happen no matter what, and things not meant to be, won’t happen, no matter what. So do your best, and forget the rest!
I believe in the purity of love. In the sanctity of friendship. In unconditional love. And I don’t mean the romantic kind. That too, but I believe in the end, its about love, and not much else. And love, that has its foundation in genuine friendship, will last.
I think the greatest gift nature has given me is love for reading. Its not just a hobby for the sake of it, its a necessity of life. While I cannot be everywhere and do everything, I can still experience it in some form through words, even when they are someone else’s! I find comfort in the written word, in the darkest of nights, and believe that books have the ability to heal.
I find my thoughts on feminism and gender equality getting stronger everyday. Less talk, more action I say! Walk the talk people, and try to live your life like a free person, with rights, dignity and responsibility.
I believe I am growing up to be like my mother. I see a lot of her in myself and it grows day by day. While I could have only hoped to be close to an inch of her shadow, the fact that I am turning in to her every day makes me fall to my knees and thank the Universe. There is no other woman I admire more, and that is not just because she’s my mother. She is a special child of the Universe and she is blessed. The word that comes to mind when I think of her, is “divine”.
I find myself wanting to cling to my parents more and more as I grow! May be that has more to do with the fact that the time for me to get married is approaching fast , but I appeciate them more and more every single day, and the list of what all I hope to do for them is growing longer day by day. I don’t know what all I will be able to, but I know I’ll try with everything in me.
I believe marriage is a social institution that has little to do with love. It should be a choice, not a compulsion. And the older I grow, the more I believe!
I find some likes and dislikes growing over time, and I find some fading away. I still dont like much make up, still swear by flat chappals over high heels, still love tea and junk jewellery. On the other hand, I am more tolerant of religion ( as long as it doesn’t interfere with me), of work politics even!
I have met so many people along this life’s journey so far, some who’ve been around forever, some not any more, and lots, I believe, yet to come. I strongly believe now, that people come in to our life for a reason, even if it is for just a season. While earlier, I’d cry bucketfuls over a friendship gone sour, I am now at a place where I still do my bit, but if something’s gone for good, I can make peace with it. I believe it takes two, and unless there is effort from both sides, whether it is apologizing or forgiving, things can’t stay the same forever if it is a one way street.
I have seen myself go from an obese person to someone who’s thinner than she’d like, and someone who actually prays every day for weight gain (Imagine!) and both the states had everything to do with my happiness. On that note, I am begining to realize the importance of taking care of one’s health, one’s body, and how it is the biggest sin to abuse it. God knows I am suffering today, and God knows I’ll never take my health, or my youth and hence the ability to bounce back, for granted, ever again. No one in this world is worth loosing your happiness and health for. No one! Trust me on that.
Sleep is precious. Thank the Universe for a good night’s sleep, you’ll miss it when its gone
Enjoy the present. As much as you can. The only constant in the world is change, and whether things are good, bad, or okay right now, they are bound to change. Count your blessings, and forget the negatives. I know I am trying. Every. Single. Day.
And last but not the least, spread the love :)
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