Back.............

I want it all back: from the cold nights, to the skipping heart beats.I want it back.I want my tears back- from when my puppy died to the countless times I have banged and bruised my head.I want my parents screaming at me because I am being mischievious, when I am laughing on the inside because I have no intention of changing.I want my friends concerned about me.I want to be missed.I want someone crying, begging God for me to be okayI want it back.I want to cry over sad movies.I want to be afraid of dying.I want my hands to tremble, not from fear but from being emotional.I want to talk-freely.I want to feel wanted.I want my veins to struggle to let my blood flow.I want my heart to have to work twice as hard to beat half as slow.I want it back.I want it all back.I want my innocence back.I want you back.

Anger in me

This ill temper I have is making me mad

I blow up and I don’t know why I become sad

I wish I could handle my anger at night

I wish for just a moment I could love them right
I wish my attitude would just go away

I wish my anger would stay at bay

The mind set I have for life has to change

The feelings I have need not exchange
I feel the hurt deep down inside

And I wish you could see alright

The rage that is emerging

Comes out when it is least hunted
I realize it’s nothing but annoyance

That’s fetching a threat to my existence

I may end up destroying who I am

Or I may happen to become who I shouldn’t be