I am angry at myself today. Or it would be better to say that I have been angry at myself for a long time now. I am the type of a person who doesn’t like not to be in control—especially control of her own self.
But no matter how hard I try... no matter how strong I am, I know that eventually you take charge of my being. It’s like God gave you this right to be the all-knower and the all-in-all for me ALL the time. Every door I open, every window I peek through, every corner I turn around… I bump into you.
I play around. I laugh. I party. I open myself up. I look at them and try to feel the tingling in my stomach—the same tingling I have always felt when I looked at you. I look at them and want my heart to beat just a little faster. I just want the smile to linger on my face for just a few more moments.
But I fail miserably.
I could sit down and count so many flaws and failures in you… I could find so many reasons to justify not being with you. But then again, you are so perfect. Why? Why are you so perfect for me? Why do you have this ability to make me feel the way you do?
Ab Kisi Ki Ankh Ka Jadoo Nahi Chalta Mujh Par
Woh Nazar Bhool Gayi Hai Mujhe Pathhar Kar K
Every night I rest on my bed with hopes that may be I will get a chance to see you when I close my eyes. I am going out of my head—lost in a fairy tale, where you hold my hand and be my guide. You are the sweetest Lullaby.
I wonder what kind of dream this is… is it a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare? Either way, I don’t want to wake up from you.
Tum Pass Ho K Bhi
Tum Aas Ho K Bhi
Ehsaas Ho K Bhi
Apne Nahi
Aise Hain Humko Gile
Tumse Na Jaane Kyun
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